It Breaks My heart.

I guess this is a very personal posting, but I need to get it off my chest. I am a girl that always had dreams, and I've always known what I wanted in life, but lately it seems to start looking foggy and foggy. And it kills me to watch them just fall away, I feel like it's my fault that I just abandoned them. It's hard to face that. Right now it feels like my future is not going to be what I want. I don't know what to do?